Friday, July 23, 2010

Coffee buzz...

I can't sit still, nor think for that matter. It's Friday and I'm pretty excited about my plans this weekend. I should be downstairs going over O2 therapy or pt assessment, but I just don't have the motivation to do much today. I am going to see how little I can do in one day. I've gotten off to a pretty good start, and now I just need to kill five more hrs. I can dooooo it. Perhaps I can get Dr. Grumpy pants off on a tangent about which is better: bachelors or associates rrt. I find it fascinating that he can talk for hours about it.

I really do suggest everyone that has just gotten out of a relationship (esp. girls) to go on match.com. It's like the biggest ego booster. Gasp* there are people out there that think I'm the shit?! Nooo waaaay...

Well. Anyway, so I've been seeing this guy for about two weeks. I really like him and have a good bit in common. The only slight problem is that he just came out of a relationship and is jaded in the love department. I think he's still considering dating other people, but that's just not how I operate. Once I find someone I like spending time with, I don't really bother with other people. Since he and I are in the same boat, I thought it might be good for us, but we will see. I don't want to force him into anything that he doesn't want, and I most certianly don't want to get hurt again so soon. I think that's what I'm scared most of.

Anyway. I have 4 and 1/2 more hours to go. I think today will be good as long as I can continue to hide away :)

Monday, July 19, 2010

inadequate

I feel relieved. I feel like someone gave me the biggest high five, and told me how awesome I am. I am no longer bound down by the notion that I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I don't have to learn French if I don't want to. I am beautiful, funny, smart and a damn fine catch. Any guy should be scrambling just to be around in my presence. I am....the brightest crayon in the box...

K. So that was a little over the top- but today I just feel really great about myself. I've lost about 10lbs, no longer eat fluffy animals, am at the top of my class, and have a really great guy that likes me. Hurrah :)

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Break time..

Yawn.

I am pretty dern tired. I was up late last night from my daaaate and now I'm exhausted trying to study for my first test tomorrow for Dr. Grumpy Pants. I'm usually the last one to leave school because I'm basically the only person that doesn't have a life. Nice, huh?

I finally got my clinical site nailed down. Dr. GP wanted me to move locations to another prestigeous hospital where the preceptor is known for grilling the students more than a well done steak. Apparently, it means a great deal to be placed there (ie: you are smart enough, and have a good attitude). I feel good about him asking me to go there, and me and Sarah get to do it together :)

I have a 1200$ plane ticket refund from the France/Spain trip that I have to use by next Febuary. I have two breaks that I could use it by (one in September and one in December). It's basically a round trip cross-continent type of deal... so I'm going to have to ponder on that a bit before I make up my mind on where I will go. I wish I could split it up and take some friends with me, but it's only in my name. Decisions decisions...

Well. My break time is just about up. I get to review more on pt assessment because it's making up a big part of the test tomorrow. Yep. I'm officially a nerd.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Oh happy day

So.

Things are going well on two fronts.

1. School. I'm kicking ass and taking it day by day. I really feel like I'm learning a whole lot in the lab, and really utilizing dr. grumpy pants for information. I still have a very long road a head of me, but I'm trying to take everything in and really "connect the dots."

2. New boy. Wow. I have not been able to focus on school work when I think of him. I'm going to see him tomorrow, again :) Probably going to hit up Whole Foods and make a pesto together. Sigh, new crushes can be so much fun.

Oh. I've lost about 10 lbs too. It's not just from the mourning period where I wasn't eating, but rather from exercising, and quitting meat all together. I feel 100% healthier and my body is ROCKIN. I'm now down to 120. I don't want to lose anymore weight, but rather gain some muscle tone in my stomach. I can think of some good ways to accomplish that....

:)

Goooood night world.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Bright spot

There's a bright spot on the horizon. I see it, I feel it, and I want to be near it. The warmth that is radiating is amazing. I know I said I was no longer going to speak of personal things on this blog- well I've decided against that. I have too much to say, and there's only so much I can write in my personal journal.

I closed the ex's book last week. I don't need to talk/see him for closure. I read the book cover to cover, analyzed it, and then made a very concrete decision that the book just wasn't that great. Some parts were, but the over all story arc lacked cohesiveness and a fairy tale ending (and lets face it, everyone wants a fairy tale ending). It was too hyped up, and just had no substance. I'm glad I don't have to read it again if I don't want to.

Sooo. Went on a date this weekend in Atlanta. I won't go into the details, but there were sparks. Serious, serious sparks. Perhaps even the potential of fireworks in the future. Weee shall see. I'm going to see him again on Wednesday. It's amazing that just meeting someone else that you're interested in can make you realize how much you were missing out on. I missed out on a lot by not meeting this guy sooner...

Anyway. Respiratory. Fun stuff indeed. Clinical starts in less than a month, and I'm excited. I hope to move back towards the city after I finish a rotation in a hospital close to my 'rents house. So, around March of next year.

Here are just a few things that he gets points in my book for: He's smart, funny (and understands my humor too), good lookin, loves animals, vegetarian (which I have been for the last month), loves the same outdoor activities as I do, has good friends, again LOVES animals, and seems to be in the right state of mind for a relationship. We shall see indeed....

Ah. well, the benadryl and wine is hitting me. I'm about to be out like a light. I'll post soon, esp if things are developing as I hope...

Adieu--

Monday, July 5, 2010

Busy bee

Stayed at school from 8a.m. to 8:30p.m. I guess I should just get used to it, because with the amount of info I have to learn right now I should just move into the lab. It will be ok, because I have no life anyway.

I like Dr. Grumpy Pants. He's slowly growing on me, and I'm sure that after a while he's gonna like me too. I just want to show him that I really am very serious about this program, and that I'm going to do whatever it takes to be successful in this field.

STILL trying to learn all the drugs. This process seems like it will take FOREVERS.

Ok, it's really my bed time. Later gators.