France and other things

So September came and left quite quickly. I feel like I didn't really get a good chance to enjoy my favorite month. It was just filled with moving, getting settled and making the trip over to Europe and back. I'm still drained a little. It's strange how you need a vacation when you get back from a vacation. I still have a lot of little things to do around the house to get fully moved in, and luckily I have the rest of this week off of work so I can really get down to it. That's funny to me, because currently I am laid up in bed with absolutely noooo intention of getting out of this comfortable mess of sheets until I really have to.

I have some good news and some bad news for you kids. The good news is that I spent A LOT of introspective time in France for myself. I broke down what really made me happy. I mean really made me happy. It came to me one day while sitting in Luxembourg park and just enjoying the day for all that it was. It was a highly emotional moment for me, that is so personal I'm kind of wondering why I feel like putting it on my blog. But, here it is, because I guess I just needed to tell a whole bunch of random strangers that probably don't care too much about my feelings anyway.

And that's where the bad news starts. I wrote a whole lot in my journal while on this trip, and I don't plan on stopping that anytime soon. It's uncensored, and I don't have to constantly worry about someone at work finding out (which lets be honest, some people that read this know who I am, and haven't said anything so far...), but I just don't want to have to keep looking over my shoulder. Or editing my potty mouth.

So I'm not officially closing the blog quite yet, but I thought long and hard about just letting it hang out on it's own for a while. Let it be inspiration for young RT students that wonder what it's like to get your life turned upside down by juggling class/clinical/personal life all while reaching towards that goal. That's mostly what I started writing on this blog for. I read a lot of the respiratory blogs out there that kept me a float when I thought things were bad for me. It kept me going, and I wanted to help in anyway that I could. There's also the student RT resume (that needs editing, I know, but the basic concept is there) that I'd like to leave up as an example for anyone that needs it.

Anyway. That's where we stand right now. My weird/funny/awkward sentiments about the career right now is just going to be written down somewhere else for the time being. I'll try to come back every few months and give little updates here and now.

Just to throw in some good news while all of you guys are weeping uncontrollably at the computer right now...

I did find someone special to love. It took a while to find him, but he's wonderful and fills my heart up. He's an upstanding guy that laughs and my stupid jokes and then turns around and has me cracking up too. He's compassionate, driven, and more importantly doesn't put any sort of conditions on who I am supposed to be. He likes me for me, not because i'm tough like dirty harry or can make him laugh like jim carey. And I'm so glad I found him once again.

Au revoir for now internets. I am putting a picture up of myself in France. I'm not so worried anymore if people know who I am, because if you work with me and read this blog, it's not so hard to figure the connection immediately. If you're wondering where I am in the pic, it's right over the bank on the lawn out behind Les Invalides (where Napoleon is buried).