Monday, September 27, 2010

marriage: revised

So, a while ago I posted several ranting blogs on how I wanted to get married, et cetera et cetera. Lame. Very very lame of me. I have this stupid, fifth grade idealization of the whole thing and it's just something that was brainwashed into me at a young age.

You graduate high school, then you go to college, get a job, get married, set up a house, and then have babies. That's the expected route. It's the normal route. What people fail to mention to the 10 year old girl watching The Little Mermaid is that marriage sucks, for the most part. Like, 10-20% of marriages are actually happy and are sustained forever.

So why do I keep holding up every single guy to the standard of "the one"? Everyone is doomed unless they meet every single check off on my list.

I really do believe that the loneliness is the hardest part. That's why I'm dealing with dating guys that are mediocre, at their very best. I go through a period of pure bliss and elation when first starting to date a guy and then slowly I start to realize I could never be with that person for long term because A, B, and C. Then what to do?

Fuck et al. Baha. At least I have a really good sense of humor. The important thing I've come to realize is that a woman should never expect a man to stand up and take care of her. That's a spectacular lesson to have learned.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Another quarter...

Hi there kids


Long time no see. There are SOOOOO many of you guys reading my blog, right?

Ok, so it's finally the end of the first quarter of my senior year. Geeeet excited! Yeah, that was all supposed to be sarcastic. All of it. Sucks that sarcasm doesn't translate well into text. It's a lost art.

It's my last day of classes tomorrow, and then I'm off to spend 2 weeks out west with my dad. I'm really looking forward to seeing the most beautiful sights and just relaxing for a while. I'm missing two days of school for it, so it better be fantastic. I'm going to go on my own little adventures and see what I can see.

Next stop, mechanical ventilation. Wooohoooo....


Side note: there are people out there that actually like me, for me. It's insanity!!! Finally met one guy from Charleston, and I'm really looking forward to spending more time with him. He's great. What I've always wanted in a guy, really. He seems to reaaaally be into me too. The chemistry between us is ridiculous. So I might not end up at MCG in Augusta after all... MUSC sounds way more fun :) Depends... toooootally depends.