Saturday, August 14, 2010

That one

Once a month I sit and do absolutely nothing. Sometimes I read, sometimes I watch movies, and sometimes I listen to music and engage in somewhat illicit affairs. Sometimes I think too much.

Anyway. I took a break from my normally super busy weekends to just relax and catch up on that sleep.

Sometimes I don't even know who I really am. I feel like I am whatever someone wants me to be. I'm the girl. I'm the girl that goes to school. I'm the girl that can look pretty. I am the girl that is a student. I am the girl that doesn't know if marriage is right. I'm the girl that wants marriage to be right. I'm the girl that's lost on hospital floors. I'm the girl that doesn't know where things go from here. I have to find that little girl in there somewhere. I think she's still hanging around. I've had to suppress her for far too long.



I am now going to do what I want. Just have to figure out what that is....


That girl

Monday, August 9, 2010

Another first

First day at clinical. Whew. Huge. Oh my freaking gawd.

I can't even begin to describe the experience, but suffice to say it was a lot. I have a very particular preceptor that likes to grill students on the first day. Good thing I know my shit. It's just overwhelming with all the people there. I did meet a few friendly faces that I'll remember in times of confusion or stress. I just look forward to learning as much as I possibly can in the time I spend in clinical. This rotation is going to be more of observation and drilling the concepts/drugs into my itzy bitzy little brain, and then the next rotation I go to will hopefully be at a much smaller hospital where I can get my hands in on some intubations (and not have to fight the residents tooth and nail to be at the head of the bed). I'll write more when there's more to write :)

I'm kind of going a bit crazy with all the boys that are trying to date me right now. I did the match thing for a few months... and it was just too crazy. I've been trying to date multiple guys right now, and it's soooo not working with the schedule I'm trying to keep. I'm slowly weeding out the guys that are just not working out. Right now there is not any guy that I could see myself dating long term, but that could change in the future. I'm open to all possibilities, and I'm sure I'll meet some people in the hospital too. Weee shall see... there are a whole lot of reaaaally cute residents.

Ooh kay. It's 6:30 p.m. and I'm exhausted. I will be turning in pretty soon.

Later gators